undeserving love

God you are truly so amazing...
God loves me!! The Father of heaven and earth, the ruler of the entire universe, cares for ME!?! I dont get it! i seriously dont get it! Why do you love us so much? Why do you love ME so much!!!? You dont need me, i cant give u anything u need, i am completely undeserving of ur forgiveness, ur grace, and most of all ur love. Ive turned away from you Lord. I was covered in sin, and you washed me clean, and then u clothed me with ur love n blessings. HUH!?!!? what?! why!? I didnt even seek you God. You chose me! ME!! U wanted ME to see ur kingdom?! I dont get it! YOU called me and gave me new life, YOU changed my heart, YOU instilled the holy spirit within me, when I was blind YOU gave me sight, YOU protected me when i was scared, YOU comforted me when i was broken, and then it was YOU who died for me. WHAT?!? i dont understand! I jus cant believe that my God loves me that much, that by His grace and love, He said "Chris, you're mine. I will provide for you. I will protect you. I will lead you. No one can snatch you out of my hand." oh my GOD! How wonderful you are. It's jus unbelievable that you would love me so deeply. It doesnt make any sense, that you my God, my Father, my Lord, and my King would give ur only Son to die for me! And save us from our sins. We dont deserve it at all.

Why did u send Jesus to pay the price of OUR sins? We back stabbed you, we betrayed you, we lost sight of you, and did evil wickedness. And yet you sent ur Son who willingly died for us, because you so loved the world. Why do u love the world? Why do u love us? Our world is so prideful, conceited, greedy, hateful, selfish, rotten, consumed by darkness, full of evil desires, and we even worship ourselves as idols… Wow God, ur LOVE is so incredibly AWESOME. Your love is so undeserving, so unconditional, so pure, so holy, so warm, so graceful, and so passionate, That even though we sinned, you forgave us through Christ. You justified us through faith in Jesus. You presented us with the only one worthy of atonement for all of our sins. Your love is so great, there is nothing i can do to make you love me any more or any less. I love when you speak to me, i love when you call me, i love when you comfort me, i love when you guide me, i love when you restore me, i love you because you first loved me.
"Consequently, just as the result of one trespass was condemnation for all men, so also the result of one act of righteousness was justification that brings life for all men. For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous." (romans 5:18-19)

We are purified and wiped clean because ur Son Jesus Christ bore OUR sins on that cross. He is our only connection to you Lord. We are reconciled only through faith and repentance in Him, When born again, we find everlasting life to share with you! And lastly u are so awesome God, that u allowed us to have a intimate relationship with you. All I want is YOU! Everything else is meaningless. NOTHING else in this world will ever satisfy us. I cant stop thinking about you God! I want to spend every minute with you. Be on my mind always. I love falling asleep to ur peace, and waking up to ur voice. I love learning about ur character. For you say "I am." and i say "You are." You ARE Truth, you ARE Love. You ARE everything that is good. God You're so big! I jus wanna shout it on top of a mountain. But u hear me even when my heart whispers.

Your love is so overwhelming, its almost too much for me to contain inside me! my heart trembles just thinking about ur love. My mind jus wants to burst, because it cant even fathom how almighty you are. Everything else in this world combined and multiplied by a billion, is still nothing compared to knowing your love. Man's understanding of your love, does'nt even begin to scratch the surface. What does it mean to truly love you? Loving u means we have a passion. Not a passion for church, ministry, missionary work, evangelism, singing songs, or reading the bible. Loving you means we have the deepest passion for you, and you alone. A passion to know you and be close to you. And if we find that desiring passion for you, everything else jus seems to follow. Its always been all about you God. Everything in life points back to you. You are our creator, you molded us, shaped us, and gave us life. You designed us and then call us to be a part of your will. So I gladly give my life to you, I will follow u all of my days, I surrender all to you God, because i am yours.

"The love of God is not God's making much of us, but God's saving us from self centered sin so that we can enjoy making much of him forever. And our love to others is not our making much of them, but our helping them to find eternal satisfaction in making much of God. The only ultimate love is a love that aims at satisfying people in the glory of God. Any love that terminates on man is eventually destructive. It does not lead a person to only lasting joy, namely, God. Love must be God-centered or it is not the greatest love; it leaves people without their deepest need and only hope." (John Piper)

How can u see or feel God's love?? How can you not!? Look at this beautiful earth He provided us! Look at all his creation, his design, and his mind blowing wonders. Look at his perfect and pleasing will. I can feel the presence of ur love when the wind brushes pass me in the shade, i can hear the sound of your love when u pour tiny raindrops on the land, I can see the beauty of ur love when u rise up forest of trees n unique creatures of life, I can feel the warmth of ur love when the sun shines over me, I can see the power n strength of ur love through the vast valleys of mountains, I can feel ur love leading me when the ocean waves direct me, I can see the gentleness of ur love through a child’s smile and laughter, and I know ur great compassionate, enduring, everlasting, infinite, ultimate, supreme, pure, patient, and unconditional love that words cannot even describe, when you my God saved me.

Daddy, Now that i see, taste, hear, feel, and know your love, How do i love on others? Show me how to love them!! How do i show them ur character n grace? How can i show them you? Work through me Lord. Humble my pride Lord. Let me only be a vessel for ur message. Let Christ reign down in the hearts of men. Draw me closer to u, and continue molding me everyday Lord God. Use me to lead ur people towards your name. Let me be a slave to u, a servant to others, and be the salt n light of this world. Let ur will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. May everyone else see what i see. Show them what uve shown me. Make ur desires my desires, and make ur values my values. Make me hunger for you 24/7 God. I love you Lord. I love you Lord. I love you Lord!!! You are good. And your love endures forever. Amen!

Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

WoW GOD!! ur so BIG!!

hi blogspot, nice to meetchya, im chris

im super new and dont know how to add and subscribe to other ppls blog, maybe someone can help?
i still feel at home with xanga but maybe blogspot will be like tryin on new shoes. btw please pardon my slang writing and bad grammar for this blog.

classes are actually pretty interesting this year, hopefully i dont end up slackin off like i usually do. I finally got my class schedule better. im takin HAW, EDEA, PSY, PSY, THEA.

k now that we caught up with school and all, we can talk about God!!!

i seriously love growing in passion for Christ. Now days it seems i want to spend every minute with Him. I think its because i started thinkin about where i was at with my intimacy with God. Throughout this summer, ive focused on studying theology, learning more about what Jesus commanded, how i should conform my life to his desires, growing in worship, leading bible studies, gaining more self discipline, evangelizing and sharing Jesus with non-believers, learning about Calvinism views, watchin sermon podcast, reading devotions, and learning about all the technical things about the bible. Thats all super good stuff, but ive realized that i was missing a huge part in all of this. Prayer!

 When i normally pray, its a real quick thank you, or a couple minutes before i sleep. But boy that changed quick. Our relationship with Jesus is much more important than following all the norms of the Christian religion. But then after thinkin about it choke kine, i realized that in order to have a relationship with Jesus, we need to spend time praying. Prayer for me was like leaving a message on God's answering machine. But lately, praying, or even jus sitting in silence, has become soooo intimate. I no longer feel that it's a long distance call, God is right there with and within me. He knows everything thats going on in our lives, but still loves it when we communicate it with him. Lately ive also been able to hear God. I always like to make sure its God im hearing, And when God is talking...oh.. its God talking!! u jus know. He can speak to us through our thoughts and impress his will on our heart with what he wants us to know. He affirms it through the Holy Spirit within us so we can have confidence when he speaks to us to various ways. Knowing that im followin what God has planned for me, is very very comforting. When i ask God, is this what u want me to do? And God responds, "Yes!" i get all filled up with joy, because i get to be a part of Gods plan!

Another thing ive learned, is that just listening and seeing God is super powerful. Sometimes it's nice to stop and feel the little rain drops, see the sun illuminating the clouds, feel the warmth of the sunshine, watch the trees wave hello in the cool wind, and to admire all of God's glory in nature. When in nature, or quietness, God clearly brings peace to heart. As a response to God's love, I find praise and an abundance of love for Him. God is Good! Nothing else can truly satisfy us. And then i look at the people of the world, and wonder why are so many lost? Why dont they see or hear God? If only everyone could know and experience God's love. But no, sin, pride, and lust have corrupted minds and hearts. we've made worldly pleasures into idols. They have become too comfortable in loving the world and themselves before God. To many it's inconceivable that there could be something greater, such as purpose, life, blessings, grace, forgiveness, purity, peace, patience, and an infinite love from God the Father. And so what is the solution? Show them God's love!! Be mini Christ to them! Tell the world that Jesus lives!

+epic high school ministry has been goin awesome! we had 150+ kids come to our back to school bash,
+ohana groups for epic has been super challenging, because u really hafta break it down into pieces for the kids to chew on, sometimes the big complex chunks jus confuse them
+epic underground small groups has been dying out, cuz me and my friend have been kinda lazy tryin to run it, or maybe jus too busy
+bible study with my friends have been goin well, butt could use a big excitement energy charge
+K-Cru with campus crusades is jus startin up, and so far everythings been comin together
+ 24/7 prayer which sara recently introduced me to is super exciting! i really feel God has been pushin me to focus more on the intimacy part

ahh its like 2am now, jus too much stuff on my mind, k time fo' go sleep, im pooped!