I have a really weird sleep schedule. It's only consistent if i sleep really late and wake up late and get long naps at freedom. I usually wake up last minute after my 6 alarms to rush to work. And no matter how late i am, i always hop in the warm shower. it's jus one of those things u cant compromise. I'm usually a zombie groaning, walking into things and not all mentally there lol.
Last night i took some melatonin sleeping pills around 11pm and woke up around 3am cuz my fans were making me too cold and giving me sinus issues. So after i wake up to use the bathroom and get a drink of water, i realized I can't go back to sleep. So i figured i'd make use of the time. I got to eat breakfast and listen to music and watch random motivational speeches on youtube.
There's this dude named Eric Thomas, and he was saying something like, Know what you want, know what's important to you, know your dreams and goals, know why you want them. Then go chase after and get them. Put in the hard work, the discipline and the sacrifice to be the greatest version of yourself. Live with purpose. So i was all amped up. i did some stretches and went for a run, which was really a jog, which was really a walk. I was kinda dying to catch my breath. But it was nice to wake up before everyone else and start the morning right. It feels good to be productive. Now i get to go to work early and start the week off somewhat rejuvenated.
In other news, I got a new job offer. I've been conflicted about accepting it or not cuz I know it's a big commitment and a lot of work. Sometimes i doubt my capacity, and don't want to over stress myself. But my dad reminded me that we're often stronger than we think, and we can do more than we think. I just finished another semester of night classes, and man am i tired of school. like really tired. Part of me doesnt think i have it in me to work full time. part of me just wants to quit school. The other part of me says suck it up and stay busy, just focus on one day at a time.
Lately I've been really stupid spending money irresponsibly (again), and i really really need to start saving up. So for that reason i feel like i should just accept the job offer even tho i know it's gonna take a lot of energy. One of the good things is that it's only a 5 minute drive away and its got air condition. AC is definitely a big factor. I guess i should just accept a new opportunity.
Whenever i have big decisions to make, i definitely over analyze. I'm so deliberative and contemplative that i never feel quite confident in making a decision. I have to work on being more decisive and confident in my choices. My dad tells me, "Sometimes in the moment you just have to make a choice and go with it, and if it's a mistake, learn from it and then let it go, don't look back. Otherwise you'll be holding too many regrets and second guessing yourself." But easier said then done.
I think self-confidence also changes how we interact with people. Sometimes i don't have the boldness to approach people, greet them and ask them questions about themselves. There's an art to asking good questions. i guess what im tryin to say is.. approach people with more confidence. yeah.
