Healing

i feel extremely happy, blessed and a little energetic. This blog is about how God's grace has offered me healing lately. I hope you can experience how incredible his grace is too, no matter where you are in your walk with God. The simple truth is that God loves us so much.. he loves, loves, loves us. and that's something that we cannot forget.

I can't really explain it, but i'm going to try. For a long time i had a dark cloud that i lugged with me (can't really lug a cloud, but u get what i mean). If you're a close friend of mine, you probably know i struggled with some depression with losing friends and deciding to move back to hawaii, and feeling gloom about the past, present and future. I began to withdraw from people relationally, including church and God. Maybe i felt like no one really understood or was there for me.

But lately, i feel like things have turned a complete 180 degrees. God spoke to me today. Maybe not audibly, but thrIough his love. I decided to go for a run today (which actually turned into a long exhausting walk uphill). But God communicated that he's got everything in control. I felt secure in his love. As i walked passed a small field of sunflowers, i was reminded of how much God provides and cares for even all of nature. And how much more does he love and delight in us his Children!

His grace goes higher than the sky, farther than the horizons, deeper than the ocean. He love us infinitely and passionately. His GRACE is so powerful.. His love so wonderful and gentle. I found beauty in walking with God today. I found beauty in making new friendships. I feel very blessed to have made new friends. And i hope to rekindle and strengthen some friendships that have grown weary. I found hope in moving towards the future and work.

I struggled with exactly what i wanted to do with my life. And i didnt feel qualified to jump into ministry when i was still the one hurting. I deeply hurt a close friend, that i cared for. And i believe God's incredible love has really been healing those wounds behind the scenes. And i didnt realize this at first, but.. God has brought people in my life to also restore me.

I am resolved to give my life to help others. I want to pursue a form of pastoral care and counseling. Another way of saying it  is  it's called Christian therapy that is focused on  holistic health, soul care,spiritual,  relational and emotional health. I feel very grateful that God has slowly healed me from within. I allowed my pessimistic thoughts to dictate and dominate my behavior and mood. But God trumps over depression. God love offers so much healing i can't even describe.

so yah. I want to pursue a form of counseling, or maybe Christian education. And i know this will take a few months to get settled in. I got really sick with stomach pains, but in the past few months, God has allowed me to taper off the meds, and he restored some physical health back. I just gotta stay committed to working out and exercising. I also am resolved to volunteer more with homeless outreach, which also blesses me more than i realize. Prayer is so powerful. I think many of us struggle to find the opportunity to actively bless, serve and care for others. This is something i hope i can be more intentional with.

i know not many ppl follow my blogs, but I wanted to also put an invitation out for anyone who needs help, spiritual direction, or a friend to talk to. When you really think about it, isn't God, family, friends, and growing in these relationships the most important things in our life? I think God has so much transformation and growth in store for all of us.