July 4th

i jus got back from the gym. And there is seriously something spiritual about getting a good physical workout. I took a C4 prework, and my mind feels so sharp with concentration and energy.

I found this old vitamin bottle for Glucosamine. I kept it sealed and was saving it. But when i opened it and ate one, it was super nasty.. but since i started chewing so much, i had no choice but to swallow this nasty chewy thing.. Yuck! then i rushed to the refrigerator to look for something to get the nasty taste away. I grabbed a few lychees that have been sitting there. I bit one open and shoved it in my mouth. And to my surprise it tasted horrible and gross. So now my mouth still tastes like rotten grape fruit. lol..

that was so off topic..

oh today, or yesterday was july 4th. It's funny when u type something, and you could correct yourself, but you don't. you jus keep going. It's also funny that i hardly proof read my blogs, and then when i reread them later, there's tons of mistakes. lol so much for having a bunch of concentration..

okay.. so here's what i wanted to talk about

Today was 4th of July. And i went to greg's aunt's house with greg, crystal, baraka, and ike. Gregs cousins are josh, joseph, and maria. today was my first time i met their dog shilo. He's super big and furry. He seemed nice at first.. but then later on while we we're eating he started barking at me like crazy.. it was scary. anyways, it was pretty fun eating super good steak, chicken, mexican food, super good salad and brownies. It's always fun to eat good food with friends.

i really miss summers. Summer is a time to enjoy life. You can wake up without having anything demanding to do. You can clean things that have gotten too messy. Summer is great because you don't always feel pressed with time or stressful duties. Summer allows one to focus on leisure and fun activities. I guess you could take advantage by gettin ahead with summer school or by working. But i think we all need time to jus be a kid.

One of the things i wanna focus on this summer is going to the gym more. i was watchin a bunch of inspiring utube videos about exercise. It's so fun pushing ur body to it's limits and feeling yourself get stronger. But on the flip side, i think, what's the point of working out like crazy? i guess it's best to treat it as recreational fun. i really wanna go swimming and i really wanna play basketball. I also miss surfing. I also wanna go snowboarding.. there's a new 24 in lakewood openin in august, so im excited they'll have courts and a pool.

moving to bellflower has been kinda strange. I'm still gettin used to the area. i kinda have a urge to go shopping.. i have a bunch of things i need to get at target.. I need to stop spending so much money! 

from this day forward i'm gonna take my diet more seriously. I love a visalus smoothie in the morning.. so good! i think im jus gonna start eating chicken and salad more often. Oh i also wanna make rice soup, (jook).. but i guess too much rice isnt good. i kinda want gogi now.. oh and bbq ribs..
lol its hard to eat right when your stomach craves all sorts of food..

hmm.. okay.. yeah.. so here's what i really wanted to blog about..

I was listening to some worship songs, and worship really opens oneself to God. Sometimes worship can be so cluttered with all this fluff. The best worship is done in humility. The best worship seeks nothing more than to praise God. I like worship songs that have good theological truths. I like songs that focus on the the atonement of Christ. The righteousness that comes through justification. I like songs that are centered around scripture.

We need to make it a habit to worship God. We can worship God in anything that we do. But perhaps the best worship is the time that we intentionally give to God. The best worship involves giving our whole heart and soul. I love when my heart desires nothing but God. For some reason it seems difficult to spend time with God. I think this is why we need to feed ourselves spiritually more consistently. We need more strict accountability. We need fellowship that is invested in each other. We need friends that actually love and care for each other. We need help to do these spiritual disciplines, because we get so easily distracted.

this summer i want to focus on spiritual disciplines. I think i wanna focus on solitude, prayer and rest. Oh and also scripture reading. I struggle to make appointments with God. I struggle to slow myself down and have the patience to seek God. We need to find avenues that draw our attention to God. I think worship songs and jus being alone help. Having free time is great because i can actually listen to sermons! i miss watchin my john piper, mark driscoll, paul washer youtube videos. I also miss listening to waxer tipton back in hawaii. In order to grow closer to God, we need to feed ourselves spiritually by making time for God. We need to make spiritual disciplines habits so that we can open ourselves to hearing God speak to us. We need to make time for worship so that we can enjoy being with God. Being full on God's love leads to joy, which increases faith and leads to action or sanctification. As plants we need to be showered by God's grace, we need to absorb the warmth of His love and we need to be fertilized by His Word. We need stronger roots and a greater dependency on Him.

When we're close to God, we're far from sin. When our minds are consumed by pondering the beauty of the cross we set our hearts on worship mode. The key to loving God is seeing how He first loved us and continues to love us. When we get a taste of His love, we desire Him more.

Abba, help me to slow down. Help me to stay determined, committed and focused on my goals. I want more of you and purity in my life. I want to hate my sin. I want a deeper repentance of sin. I want to grow in fellowship with others and a deeper intimacy with you. I want to hunger and thirst for you because only you truly satisfy. May you be my greatest pleasure, delight and superior joy above all else. Help me to worship you. Help me to fall in deeper love with you daily. God help me to be a witness for you. Help me to shine your love, especially during challenging times. gaurd my thought life. God shut down any pride in my life. Grant me humility. Grant me joyful obedience. Grant me an authentic heart. Help me to be others minded. Help me to sincerely pray for others. Help me to love. Thank you for caring for me as your child. God take my heart, worship and devotion. May these not be empty words. Discipline me, speak to me and help me to spend more time with you. Don't let me waste this summer. Don't let me waste a day. Fill me with peace and joy. Amen.