parenting

today i went to visit my cousin. She has two boys. Brennan is 2 years old, and the Preston is only 7 weeks. Having to watch them for just 2 hours was very challenging. It was easy holding preston on my lap, until he made a weird face and pooped in his pants. Apparently the rule is that if your holding him at that time you gotta change the diaper. It was also kinda gross to have them sneeze and drool everywhere.. Then Brennan had way too much energy running around and touching everything. He was also crying because he wasn't getting as much attention. i don't see how moms do it sometime.

At first i really wanted a kid. Then i still kinda wanted a kid. Then i was unsure. Now i'm pretty sure i don't want kids. Even just one is a lot of work. After, we went to walmart, and it seemed like everyone had little kids. you could hear parents scolding, children crying and screaming, and i was like, "man would i really be able to do that all day err day?" Sometimes kids just seem too out of control. You hafta do everything for them and they don't even listen. i can barely take care of myself. I'm not saying i don't enjoy kids. I'm jus saying that it takes a whole lot of energy, time, money and dedication to raise a child. I don't see how single parents can do it all. i think i'll jus get a dog!

Being in hawaii makes me lazy. My mom seriously does all the work. Cooking, cleaning, and yard work. She's super social and has so much energy. We went walking, and i know i walk slow, but she just kept going. i was so tired. i wish i did more to help. all i do is whine and complain. i did mow the lawn. and man grass is so much work.. if i get a house i'm getting cement. 

man i better start training for Olympics 2016