Trust

Things don't always go the way we plan. Things seem to happen a lot differently than our ideal hopes and expectations. A pretty important doctrine in scriptchur is this thing called faith. I guess the reason im blogging about this is because every area of my life seems to come down to faith. Faith is belief manifested. Faith played out in our life looks like trust. I think my theme for this season is trust.

If you're honest about it, we spend most of our days trusting in ourselves. We look to our own interest and fill our selfish desires before we consider God's plans. I guess i've been asking myself, have I really been trusting God? Has he been first in my thought life? I mean, yeah we trust God for our salvation and in the power of his grace. But do we trust God with our future? our finances? our relationships? our insecurities, fears or pain? More times than not we turn to ourselves to try and fix our problems, or to try and make things the way we want it. We turn to idols and distractions to try and cope. Sometimes things are simply out of our control. And we just need to let go and let God.

gah.. i guess what im trying to say is that even if things aren't exactly the way you'd wish, we can still be content because we have a God who loves us unconditionally. God is sovereign and always in control. There's not 1 second in history where God wasn't in control. Everything is in his hands, and it jus comes down to trusting in Him daily. He sustains us as our daily bread of life. I need to start changing my perspective of life. God doesn't want us to jus get by and survive, he want's us to flourish and thrive.

i applied for this full time children's pastor/ director position and got offered the job. And i didn't realize how much administration and leadership it requires. There's like 3-4 campuses with like 4-5 services at each location. And one service could easily have over 100 students. So im not quite sure what i'm getting myself into. I basically would have to oversee the leadership team and work with the parents/volunteers. I like working with little kids, but i think im more suited for high school and college students. sometimes i can barely take care of myself. And then when i start teaching a religion/ life skills course too i could be pulling 60hrs of work a week.. which i already know is too much.

i wish i could travel through time and relive easier and more fun times. If you could jump to specific moments in time where would you go? it'd kinda be fun to relive just the best memories in life, and skip past the sad times of heartache.

i was thinking about heaven earlier today. heaven must be really exciting. it's like a giant worship party. and altho we'll be in the full knowledge and presence of God, i think we'll still continue to learn and grow. It's interesting how stewardship will still be involved. like i wonder if we can do all the things we enjoy. i wonder what it's like to always be completely satisfied in God. no more pain, no more sin, no more death. it's interesting how there's actually no marriages in heaven, except Jesus and his bride the church.

well im goin off on tangents and getting really sleepy
okaayy bye