thoughts

had a bunch of college students from church come over tonight. it was fun to worship and have fellowship together. i realize that i need to invest in relationships even more.

About every other night, my roommate and i get into very deep discussions that last hours. We complain about school and all the work that needs to be done. Sometimes it's hard writing papers, reading a book, going to class or studying for a test. We usually then talk about trying to balance other areas of our lives. We talk about the future and where we want to see ourselves. We talk about our past and all the great childhood memories we had growing up. We've been watchin "The Wonder Years" and it makes us reminisce our simple lives. It's boring if everyone is serious all the time. Shouldn't we enjoy our days and invest in building greater friendships?

One thing we talked about was how important relationships and community is. We all need someone to share our lives with. We all need a few solid relationships that we can count on. We need excitement, adventure and fun in our lives. Yes we need to be faithful to our studies, however that doesn't mean we should neglect our spiritual, physical, and relational social lives. We need to make time for fun things. There's a time to work and a time for play.

I struggle with self-discipline. It's hard to force myself to go to the library and stay there until my paper gets finished. but in the end i know it'll be worth it. All this dreaming about taking it easy and having fun is important, but now i think i need to focus on actually putting in the hours for school. I definitely need to work on reading more.

And then.. i look over to my bed and see my big fat white cat curled up with a big smile on his face. Gah he makes me so lazy. I changed my sheets, and then he goes and gets hair everywhere! gah! but he's so fluffy and cuddly that you can't say no. lol.

Chris tomorrow, you will wake up late. Shower, do devotions, eat brunch, and go to the library and write an awesome paper. That's the plan.

Lately ive been having awesome dreams. But then when i wake up, i completely forget where i was. I'm usually able to have a vivid memory, but lately i've been forgetting.

I need to escape to God more. I need to remind myself that it's not about doing, but being. Being with God. I need more time with God. I don't want to settle for a mediocre relationship with God. I want God to be more important than air. I want to hunger Him more than food. I wand to find deep satisfaction in Him more than entertainment. However, even when i say these things, my life doesn't seem to reflect that same desire. How can i go a day without including God? How can i go to sleep without having God cross my mind? Does 5 short minutes a day really count as a flourishing relationship? probably not. How can i be so easily distracted? I need to get my priorities straight. I think i could jus use a good quiet time with God right about now. it's so refreshing to be in the warmth of His embrace and to know we have a Heavenly Father who loves us.