Finding Rest in God

if you were to ask me, "Chris, how are you doing right now?"
I would probably respond, angry, depressed, discouraged, tired, exhausted, and very stressed out.

However that's not how we are to go about living life. I guess we are supposed to have those times in our lives, but i don't think it's a great place to stay for too long. I find myself getting angry at small things. The stresses in life jus seem a little heavier lately. It sounds silly to say that when life really is good. I probably have it easier than most people. I'm sure most people are dealing with even harder circumstances. I jus seem to be a little pessimistic because i know i can do and be better. Sometimes life jus seems so crazy and demanding responsibilities that require your best effort and performance. But if you just go, go go, eventually you'll burn out. I'm kinda confused what i'm talking about.

Here's some things that have been adding some anxiety in my life..

My self condemnation
My self talk, and perception of myself, we need to stop our negative talk to ourselves
(We need to change our negative self talk, to one of confidence and self encouragement)
My own expectations
My lack of self discipline
My lack of compassion for others
How i get overly critical of myself that i take everythin to serious
Not using my time wisely
Not being able to turn to God for rest, instead turnin to other outlets
Not being able to sleep peacefully or on normal schedule
Test and Papers, sometimes i don't really see the meaning of some classes, assignments
School is actually really stressing me out,
And it's weird that seminary is about learning about God, and yet they make it so demanding
Frustrating sins and idols
Certain people that i just don't know how to deal with,
Some people have no consideration for others, and have horrible communication skills
Then i get angry at myself for being overly irritated at these people
and some other stuff

It's okay to rely on these to distress a little, but i need to train myself to find true rest in God. I need to run to Him, and not to silly games. i need to draw strength, comfort and peace in the loving presence of His Spirit.. I learned that i need to take better care of myself. I need to make time for just me and God. Everything seems to pour out from my spiritual walk with God. If i'm spiritually dry i find myself easily angered, impatient, and grumpy. We need better soul care. In a worship song at church they sang, "I will be still and know you are God." I need to be still. I need to communicate with God, and allow Him to help me through my trials. Before we do anything, we need to find rest in God. Than we can have peace even through stressful situations.

Father i pray for those who are going through hard times. Fill me with your love, so i can love others. Thank you for all that you provide. I am blessed to have you as a loving God. I want a deeper relationship and communion with you. May i grow in my desire for you. Draw me into your presence, i find rest just being with you. Shape and grow me in the areas that i struggle in. Make me more others minded. In the same way you laid down your life for me, help me to be a servant to others. Grant me patience, endurance, and the strength to accomplish the work and ministry you have for me. Keep me on your path and focused on your mission for me. Fill me with joy once again. Help me to slow down and simply receive from you. I also pray for self discipline and consistency. Provide me with the strength to be faithful, disciplined, consistent, loving an obedient. Help me to put you first above all else. With you all things are possible. If you are for us, who can stand against? With you on my side, i gain confidence, because i know you are with me. You are my shepherd, i lack nothing. Make me lie down in green pastures, lead me beside quiet waters, refresh my soul, guide me and comfort me. I give you all that i am, i rejoice in your name and give you my praise. Thank you for hearing my prayers.

Psalm 23
 ¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
 ² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
 ³ he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
   for his name’s sake.
⁴ Even though I walk
   through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil,
   for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
   they comfort me.
 ⁵ You prepare a table before me
   in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
   my cup overflows.
⁶ Surely your goodness and love will follow me
   all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
   forever.

Psalm 42:5
Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.