A Change in Perspective

Sometimes we need to change our perspective. Sometimes I need to change my perspective. I tend to focus on the negatives and be a critical pessimist. In psychology one is taught to analyze, observe, critique, crunch information, and do lots of introspection. In theology one is also taught to spend lots of time in meditation, reflection and to gain knowledge/insight about God and yourself. I spend so much time over thinking. I spend so much of my day weighing options and possible solutions. I do everything i can to make my future certain, and to have the best results. This is part of perfectionism, and trying to make everything in life just the way you want it. I get angry at myself sometimes because i feel like i screw up so much. I hurt people. I say or don't say things. I fall into the same holes. Even when we try to make the best decisions, we'll still make mistakes. Even the best boxer will get knocked in the face and hit the ground. It's not about if you'll get knocked down, it's about whether you have the ability to can get back up and to keep fighting. Giving up, feeling defeated and lying on the ground never gets me anywhere.

Have you ever..

Have you ever found yourself in an unexplainable groove?
Have you ever experienced an unusual phenomenon you can't describe with words?
Have you ever observed yourself changing? Like you felt like you were becoming someone different?
Have you ever found yourself becoming weaker by falling into bad mood slumps?
Have you ever found yourself rise above and become a stronger person?
Have you ever endured excruciating suffering or pain?
Have you ever thought you'd be a horrible word speller without technology?
Have you ever lost something that you didn't realize how valuable it was till it was gone?
Have you ever found something you thought you lost forever?
Have you ever lost an awesome thought and wondered where it went? like the reason why u were about to blog?
Have you ever done something for the first time you thought you could never do?
Have you ever laughed so hard, you collapse to the ground bursting out in laughter and tears?

Stop to Smell the Roses

Do you ever get caught up thinking too much about the "big picture?" i've been so anxious to get somewhere else in the future that i haven't been faithful to the small things in the present. Sometimes my mind gets so worried about the future. I can't help but over analyze everything.

I watched my cousin's 3yr old son have the time of his life with this automatic bubble gun. He couldn't stop laughing and being so amazed at the bubbles. There is joy in simply being.

Then her other 1yr old son went to town on this bottle of milk and began crashing out on me, but i freaked out cuz it felt like his diaper got heavier. and the rule is, if ur holding him last, u change the diaper. so i was tryin to pass him off like a hot potato

It feels a little weird not being able to see all the little ones in my family grow up. I have one cousin who is magically a junior in high school already. and i feel bad cuz i wasn't really there for him since i moved up to CA. it sucks he lives on like the other side of the island, and i don't have a car

awkward

isn't it awkward that some things are only awkward after you say the situation is awkward?

This is probably more common for guys. but sometimes when guys greet each other, say bye, or just finished a pick up game, someone hasta throw everyone off by giving a fist bump pound instead of a quick cool hand shake. So.. ur goin in for a hand shake, then u see the guy reveal a fist.. so you quickly switch to a fist also, but right before u make contact, they switch to an open hand.. and then u just make the most awkward hand covering a fist contact shake, like ur playing rock, paper, scissors.