letting go

I feel like i can't do anything right. i overvalued things that made me happy. and i jus don't know how to let go. i don't want to be me. I want to be better and healthier. I want to be less dependent on people to be okay. I really need to change. I jus don't know how to get there. I realized i don't like being alone. i waste so much time. I need to be more active and fill my life with good things. I put too much emphasis on things that made me happy and I obviously over think everything. I hate feeling like this. I can't believe how well i am at messing everything up. I need self-control. i need to surrender my thoughts and emotions and just stop trying so hard to fix things. Get your life together chris. stop chasing what's out of your control. Fighting to solve my problems seems to just make it worst. Letting go seems like accepting loss. i don't understand why i care so much to preserve the good things in the past. God help me to let go. Help me to trust you. just let go chris. things can't be the way you want. stop trying. let it go. go do something to better yourself.

I hate how i over complicate things. Letting go just seems like throwing everything away. You can't throw away things that have value and meaning. But i guess if i broke something important, i guess it does lose it's value. man I'm pathetic. i don't know what to do. how can we be ok when things aren't ok, guess ill jus give up and stop dwelling on it

Prayer should be our first option, not last


It's time to let go. It's time to surrender. I need to stop holding on. I have a really hard time letting go. I want to change my past, present and future, but those are out of my control. I've given up my own vain efforts. There's really nothing i can do anymore. Except in every situation there's always one thing we can do. And that's to trust God. When we pray and trust that everything is in God's hands, we can stop worrying. I want things to go back to the way they were. When you lose something valuable and important, we fight for it and try everything we can to get it back. But maybe we're just supposed to accept the loss and say goodbye. I wish i was more grateful and took care of the things the way i should've when i had the chance. There's nothing left to do but to pray and let go.

They say time heals all, but really isn't it God slowly healing our wounds? God not only makes our situation better, but he also makes us better and stronger in the process. I've caused deep injury, suffering and pain to others and myself. God says that there's grace, but I still have a hard time letting go of my guilt and forgiving myself because i'm reminded of the hurt that still lingers. God says to surrender, let go, and to trust Him. God is the only one who can sovereignly bring healing to our brokenness. God help me to trust you more. Help me to keep my head up. Fill me once again and restore my soul. Thank you for being a God who heals. You are worthy of all praise. Please be with those who are hurting and remind them of your great love.