this is a small window into my soul
sorry it's a little messy inside
i really need to clean up
Having a lot of time can be nice
even tho i haven't been getting much accomplished
i probably have too much free time
i feel so down when i jus waste a day
Too much free time makes me over think.. i think way too much
i jus want to turn my head off sometimes
maybe thats why ive been playin LoL and watchin so many movies lately
i think i jus like the champion artwork cards in LoL
even more than the game itself
my friends sucked me into learning the game
and then i got a 20/8/9 game.. oh felt so good to be awesome
feels awesome to own and basically ult mass murder in the game
i like that the game compliments me when i do good
chur is on a rampage, is dominating, is legendary,
and double kills oh.. i finally understand why ppl like this game
but then it sucks going on a losing streak and jus dying too much
league is only fun with friends u can google hangout with
free time is only fun when you can share it with someone
i wish i had a sibling in times like these
i know i should be applying for jobs
work would help me to stay busy
i need to push myself to walk down to the gym more often
I've been sick, and I've been using that as an excuse
im a little discouraged cuz i can't really do what i want to do
maybe like christian counseling
even tho I'm the one who seems to need it most
like even after a graduate degree
why am i applying to jus watch little kids after school
where is my life headed.. work work work and slowly die?
i want to live a fulfilling life but I'm not quite sure how
am i jus supposed to work for cash in a job i don't care for?
i think i might jus take a part time tutoring job for a while..
I got 3 interviews tmrw..
but i really don't wanna rush into the wrong job
i coulda jus worked and stayed in CA
i still miss friends in CA
i think i have a deep fear of losing friends
underneath that there's probably a fear of being lonely
makes me wonder if i decided to stay there instead
would it be better?
besides family.. there really isn't anything else here
sometimes it only takes small efforts to show ppl you care
it makes me wonder, what if i stopped taking the initiative
which friendships would survive? how many would fade away?
i guess it's two sided tho
I'm still willing to fight for the friendships i want to preserve
but what if the ppl u care about aren't willing to try?
sometimes it jus takes communication
maybe i jus have to accept the fact
that I'm not really that important for them
maybe I'm too relational
i jus need to stop worrying and let go
i don't think i can operate without healthy friendships
i withdraw, and jus stay there.. waiting for someone
if i say hello.. will someone respond?
if i don't say hello.. will someone say hey i've missed you?
i don't want to lose friendships
God please don't let anything get in the way of true friendships
help me protect and keep friendships
even if we don't talk much
even if there's distance
even if i don't see them often
Oh heard a song on the radio called "Harlem" by New Politics. listen to it
i was taking a walk and sat down. and a rush of wind came and hit me. sometimes it reminds me of God's presence, which is always very reassuring. there's something with nature thats jus very refreshing. sometimes i don't spend much time with God, and then i get reminded of his grace and how good he is. It becomes a joy to worship and pray. i noticed going to the gym or playing basketball also rejuvenates me somehow. and then walking home listening to music helps me more than i realize. there's jus something restoring about unplugging from technology for awhile to exercise and reflect on God. like i forget how great it is to spend time with God. u actually feel your soul recharging and a sense of peace.
probably gonna go see that lego movie soon, it looks funny. i used to love playing with legos as a kid. man i think i could bust out a box of legos right now. i don't see why we haft stop playing jus becuz we grow older. oh yeah.. responsibilities and surviving in this world chokes out all the fun.
the other day my cousins were outside playing. and instead of playin with phones and video games, they were playing with rocks, and later chalk. i really could use a break from technology. probably gonna take a break from blogging too. anyways, it was really refreshing to see kids play with stuff besides electronics and virtual stuff. kids basically make up their own fun. they have so much laughter. little kids seriously have so much life and joy in them, it's quite contagious. i realized that rocks and chalk without a friend jus isn't that fun. really.. friends are what make playing fun. we don't laugh by ourselves. well… not usually lol..
typos urk me
I guess I'm kinda late on watching the movie, but i jus watched "Howl's Moving Castle." Bizarre, strange and jus a really interesting storyline. I really like the fantasy of new worlds, like with a team of people on a quest. powers and abilities.. good over coming evil. I liked how the girl just accepts everyone with unconditional and geniune kindness, even after the witch put a curse on her. it's a good reminder to treat others well regardless of appearances, age, where they're from, etc. especially the elderly. i think the movie coulda been better with a totoro though. i don't get why that "Spirited Away" guy keeps putting dark shadow demonic spirit globs in all the movies.. jus take them out, they're weird.
if i were in the movie business i think it'd be fun to come up with a story plot and draw all sorts of neat characters and creatures. it'd be awesome to get paid to do something you love. art is kinda like life cuz sometimes things jus don't go the way you imagined, but in the end there's also unique beauty in imperfection. art is like creating life.
I FEEL kinda HyPER Riight meow!
i probably have too much free time
i feel so down when i jus waste a day
Too much free time makes me over think.. i think way too much
i jus want to turn my head off sometimes
maybe thats why ive been playin LoL and watchin so many movies lately
i think i jus like the champion artwork cards in LoL
even more than the game itself
my friends sucked me into learning the game
and then i got a 20/8/9 game.. oh felt so good to be awesome
feels awesome to own and basically ult mass murder in the game
i like that the game compliments me when i do good
chur is on a rampage, is dominating, is legendary,
and double kills oh.. i finally understand why ppl like this game
but then it sucks going on a losing streak and jus dying too much
league is only fun with friends u can google hangout with
free time is only fun when you can share it with someone
i wish i had a sibling in times like these
i know i should be applying for jobs
work would help me to stay busy
i need to push myself to walk down to the gym more often
I've been sick, and I've been using that as an excuse
im a little discouraged cuz i can't really do what i want to do
maybe like christian counseling
even tho I'm the one who seems to need it most
like even after a graduate degree
why am i applying to jus watch little kids after school
where is my life headed.. work work work and slowly die?
i want to live a fulfilling life but I'm not quite sure how
am i jus supposed to work for cash in a job i don't care for?
i think i might jus take a part time tutoring job for a while..
I got 3 interviews tmrw..
but i really don't wanna rush into the wrong job
i coulda jus worked and stayed in CA
i still miss friends in CA
i think i have a deep fear of losing friends
underneath that there's probably a fear of being lonely
makes me wonder if i decided to stay there instead
would it be better?
besides family.. there really isn't anything else here
sometimes it only takes small efforts to show ppl you care
it makes me wonder, what if i stopped taking the initiative
which friendships would survive? how many would fade away?
i guess it's two sided tho
I'm still willing to fight for the friendships i want to preserve
but what if the ppl u care about aren't willing to try?
sometimes it jus takes communication
maybe i jus have to accept the fact
that I'm not really that important for them
maybe I'm too relational
i jus need to stop worrying and let go
i don't think i can operate without healthy friendships
i withdraw, and jus stay there.. waiting for someone
if i say hello.. will someone respond?
if i don't say hello.. will someone say hey i've missed you?
i don't want to lose friendships
God please don't let anything get in the way of true friendships
help me protect and keep friendships
even if we don't talk much
even if there's distance
even if i don't see them often
Oh heard a song on the radio called "Harlem" by New Politics. listen to it
i was taking a walk and sat down. and a rush of wind came and hit me. sometimes it reminds me of God's presence, which is always very reassuring. there's something with nature thats jus very refreshing. sometimes i don't spend much time with God, and then i get reminded of his grace and how good he is. It becomes a joy to worship and pray. i noticed going to the gym or playing basketball also rejuvenates me somehow. and then walking home listening to music helps me more than i realize. there's jus something restoring about unplugging from technology for awhile to exercise and reflect on God. like i forget how great it is to spend time with God. u actually feel your soul recharging and a sense of peace.
probably gonna go see that lego movie soon, it looks funny. i used to love playing with legos as a kid. man i think i could bust out a box of legos right now. i don't see why we haft stop playing jus becuz we grow older. oh yeah.. responsibilities and surviving in this world chokes out all the fun.
the other day my cousins were outside playing. and instead of playin with phones and video games, they were playing with rocks, and later chalk. i really could use a break from technology. probably gonna take a break from blogging too. anyways, it was really refreshing to see kids play with stuff besides electronics and virtual stuff. kids basically make up their own fun. they have so much laughter. little kids seriously have so much life and joy in them, it's quite contagious. i realized that rocks and chalk without a friend jus isn't that fun. really.. friends are what make playing fun. we don't laugh by ourselves. well… not usually lol..
typos urk me
I guess I'm kinda late on watching the movie, but i jus watched "Howl's Moving Castle." Bizarre, strange and jus a really interesting storyline. I really like the fantasy of new worlds, like with a team of people on a quest. powers and abilities.. good over coming evil. I liked how the girl just accepts everyone with unconditional and geniune kindness, even after the witch put a curse on her. it's a good reminder to treat others well regardless of appearances, age, where they're from, etc. especially the elderly. i think the movie coulda been better with a totoro though. i don't get why that "Spirited Away" guy keeps putting dark shadow demonic spirit globs in all the movies.. jus take them out, they're weird.
if i were in the movie business i think it'd be fun to come up with a story plot and draw all sorts of neat characters and creatures. it'd be awesome to get paid to do something you love. art is kinda like life cuz sometimes things jus don't go the way you imagined, but in the end there's also unique beauty in imperfection. art is like creating life.
I FEEL kinda HyPER Riight meow!
I took a pre-workout energy drink.
and my head is operating super fast..
and my head is operating super fast..
like i jus talk really fast, and every thought comes out super fast
usually my mind has a filter to weed out garbage
usually my mind has a filter to weed out garbage
SO MUCH ENERGY!!.. I'm never gonna sleep
EVERYTHING just seems so CLEAR
i can't explain it. i feel extra smart and fast
__________i can't explain it. i feel extra smart and fast
So my friend and i were playing Ping Pong and it was so funny
too much LAUGHTER cuz our legs were tired
and we had slow instincts and reactions
and he kept farting while we were playing
at the most random times..
i seriously fell to the ground laughing so hard
reminds me of my youth back in the day
reminds me of my youth back in the day
Sometimes u don't know how much u miss the gym
till u start doing tough exercises
and u get this high
u push urself past ur weak limits
u fight the pain and keep going
and u get this high
u push urself past ur weak limits
u fight the pain and keep going
im glad i got my old gym buddy
so much more fun
so much more fun
I've gotten a little outta shape lately
no longer in my prime
i miss the strength
for a while i had some abs
but it took way too much dieting
and eating right.. so it felt pointless
no longer in my prime
i miss the strength
for a while i had some abs
but it took way too much dieting
and eating right.. so it felt pointless
now i gots a fat baby
i don't think ill ever be as in shape as before
i don't see the point of being super athletic anymore
if anything its a hobby that relieves stress
if anything its a hobby that relieves stress
I don't like when my computer is slow. grrr…
I sold a couch and tv on craigslist today
anything on craiglist with strangers jus seems scary
sometimes i imagine if things went really bad somehow
how would i defend myself.. can never be too cautious
anything on craiglist with strangers jus seems scary
sometimes i imagine if things went really bad somehow
how would i defend myself.. can never be too cautious
i spent most of the day filming a youtube video ill post soon
its gonna be so AWESOME.. jus wait
u can't change things that are out of your control
maybe that's God's way of leading us to pray more and to trust him more
Im almost on the verge of going crazy..
because.. i feel like I've been retired for a year..
it's nice having time. but too much free time is not good
Gotta stay active.. i need a J O B
part time would be ok.. till i find a full time
working two jobs sounds hard
part time would be ok.. till i find a full time
working two jobs sounds hard
I need to send out more applications
I'm surprised how many job postings are on craigslist
I'm surprised how many job postings are on craigslist
it's been kinda frustrating job hunting for the right job.
i don't want any ole job..
For a second i considered working at CPK, but noope
after 20 years of school and a masters degree..
I'm hoping to land a full time ministry job.
I really need to Pay off all the DEBT i owe..
someone please pay me $$$ so i can survive
someone please pay me $$$ so i can survive
sometimes it's hard to compare urself to your peers
and u hear how much they make.. and u think..
dang.. id haft work like twice as much to make that
Would u rather have a job u kinda hate,
and it sorta sucks the life out of u.. but it pays pretty good
or a job you enjoy.. but u really don't make that much
i think i rather do what i love.. and hopefully someone pays me for it
like i know money is important.
but i think being happy in life is more important
and u hear how much they make.. and u think..
dang.. id haft work like twice as much to make that
Would u rather have a job u kinda hate,
and it sorta sucks the life out of u.. but it pays pretty good
or a job you enjoy.. but u really don't make that much
i think i rather do what i love.. and hopefully someone pays me for it
like i know money is important.
but i think being happy in life is more important
I had a job interview.. but it really didn't go well
i basically declined the job
because i wasn't interested in the position offered
plus applying to churches is different,
cuz maybe you don't agree with certain things
or they just don't hire ppl outside their church
because i wasn't interested in the position offered
plus applying to churches is different,
cuz maybe you don't agree with certain things
or they just don't hire ppl outside their church
there's a bible college considering my resume
for becoming a teacher..but dang..
i don't know if I know that much.. and plus i feel too young
for becoming a teacher..but dang..
i don't know if I know that much.. and plus i feel too young
being a teacher everyday sounds kinda hard..
i could do it.. but i dunno if i'd be able to do it well
i mean.. I'm not that much older than college students too
I need to remind myself not to rush into the wrong job
a few weeks of vacay and taking my time isn't bad
I really hope i can find a good church that will hire me
i could do it.. but i dunno if i'd be able to do it well
i mean.. I'm not that much older than college students too
I need to remind myself not to rush into the wrong job
a few weeks of vacay and taking my time isn't bad
I really hope i can find a good church that will hire me
Ive been watching a BUTTLOAD of movies lately
one movie made me question what real HAPPINESS is
Am i happy? Are you happy? shouldn't we be happy?
Thoughts of singleness sometime cross my mind..
Since ppl are getting married a lot or been seriously dating
valentines kinda rubs me in the wrong way since its a reminder
for ppl who aren't in a happy relationship, that they still aren't in one
valentines kinda rubs me in the wrong way since its a reminder
for ppl who aren't in a happy relationship, that they still aren't in one
it's nice to celebrate love in general i guess
and i don't mind being single.. (maybe i jus got used to saying that
sometimes it can be lonely, and it'd be nice to mutual care with someone
and i don't mind being single.. (maybe i jus got used to saying that
sometimes it can be lonely, and it'd be nice to mutual care with someone
i think if u can surround urself with at least a few close friends
u don't really need to be in a relationship
u really don't need someone texting you everyday right?u don't really need to be in a relationship
however, it's jus strange seeing pretty much 70% of my friends dating
and i guess it makes me wonder.. does God think I'm not ready?
is my philosophy of dating/courtship wrong?
am i too picky? is it wrong to want to be friends before u date someone?
but then i have the habit of living in friendzone
someone told me, I'm too nice and nice ppl finish last
is that true? i don't get it..
maybe I'm jus comparing myself to others
and becoming somewhat impatient
and having a hard time letting go of my past scars
i thought good things come to those who wait
but I'm tired of waiting, guess theres not much of a choice
sometimes we put way too much emphasis
on being in a relationship.. we over romanticize it..
like yeah someone being there can make u happy
but do u think we over idolize it?
friendships are simple, why complicate things
i think we're all getting smarter and more selective
like if ur gonna devote urself to one person for the rest of ur life
better choose wisely, otherwise ur jus wasting ur time
plus if God aint in the picture.. that's like the main component
sometimes i find myself trying to pretend I'm ok.
sometimes i actually believe it
but is that the goal? to jus be okay?
it's ok to not be ok right..?
google O.K club idunno if it's true thats where O.K derived from, but it sounds interesting
i want to be more than ok. i want to be happy. and i want to be faithful.
i want to grow in virtues, integrity and good character
i want to be who God called me to be, even if it comes with suffering
i think its kinda ridiculous how dependent we are on technology
like phones and computers and internet.. so hard to live w/o it
it's nice to unplug and not be consumed with updates and info
i don't think we could last a day without any technology.
since technology is used with our homes, car, food too
it's nice to unplug and not be consumed with updates and info
i don't think we could last a day without any technology.
since technology is used with our homes, car, food too
God, Church, Family, Friendship, Work, Exercise, Play, Naps, blog
these are the most important things in life
it's all about relationships and taking care of yourself
mkay bye
_____
Sorry i clumped so many blogs together.. psh why should i be apologizing
no one reads this but u, actually no one reads it, well thats sad
nothing good happens after 2am.. jus go to sleep
Perhaps the reason why movies, dreams, anime, superhero stuff, and artistic worlds appeal to me so much is because i don't quite wanna deal with real life. Perhaps when we lose touch with the things and people that make us feel most alive, we slowly revert to entertainment to excite us. And so it makes me wonder.. how can i live a joyful and fulfilling life? and i guess the answer keeps going back to worshipping God, yet why do i often struggle with that?
sometimes i wish i didn't think so much. my mind is jus too flooded with internal thoughts.. i really wish i could jus turn my head off sometimes. Nyquil? yeah sounds like a plan.. goodnight
oh wait.. quick thought.. u ever have a dream so real.. i remember it so vividly. why am i so happy in my dreams? perhaps cuz things go the way u want usually? hmm.. true good point. snap.. talking to urself is never good.. or is it? perhaps it's good to counter question yourself. ok goodnight again freal
God. hey it's me. I'm sorry i haven't really been around much. I'm easily distracted. u see all the things i worry and think about. i pray for peace. i don't want to worry about the past present and future. i do want to trust in you. but i find myself worrying too much instead. God help me to trust you with my life. give me patience to wait. i didn't know missing someone could hurt so much. can u help me communicate telepathically? sometimes i can't endure the silence. God help me to not dwell, but to keep moving. God i trust you, even when things aren't how going my ideal way. u know whats best. u have perfect timing. and ur plans are good. so help me to trust u.
____
my room kinda looks like how i would see my soul
there's an unmade bed. a shelf with random things.
clothes all over the ground
and things stuffed into a closet
every time i walk over junk to get something
i tell myself i should really clean my room one day
yet it never gets done
yeah, I've made small efforts to organize and clean
but moving stuff under your bed or in my closet
really jus moves the mess around
My soul feels somewhat cluttered
perhaps i don't know how to clean
perhaps i lack the means
if i can't even clean my room
how am i to clean my soul?
perhaps i need help
maybe small steps might help
why does everything feel so unorganized within me
i feel like I've chained myself
and need some help
i hold a lot against me
i blame myself
but it's rightful blame
therefore it's guilt
why can't i receive grace
i think i feel mad at myself
I'm having trouble looking forward
I'm having trouble trusting God with things
why do i feel so helpless
if i jus patiently wait, will things change?
will things get better
i need someone to tell me it'll be alright
please jus tell me things are gonna be ok
tell me i don't need to hold things against myself anymore
and that I'm forgiven from my past mistakes
__
I slowly walk in the opposite direction
i turn to look back
you're not there
all i see is sand
and no road in front of me
the skies are grey
the air is thick and cold
my soul is parched
i continue to walk
days go by
i fall to the ground
exhausted
i lay there
unable to move
no one is coming
no one cares
i close my eyes
i see you
smiling
awaken by the storm
i realized it was jus a dream
im still here
in a sea of nowhere
you're not coming
you don't care
i lie to myself
i close my eyes again
ill hold on because i dont know how to let go
ill fight, ill wait, ill pray
even if u never come back
why do i still feel like i've lost everything?
i thought i really did know you
but maybe i dont
can u please stop the pain
instead of shutting me out
i know i screwed up
i couldnt control the beating inside me
will u hold it against me forever?
i dont want to say goodbye
cant things jus be good again?
was it really that easy to jus throw me away?
what exactly happened?
things changed so quickly
i dont think i really understand
but i refuse to give up
even the worst storms fade
and cities are rebuilt
is it not worth saving?
is it not valuable?
i don't like facing reality
there's a reason why people escape
even to their false worlds
because if u can't see the light,
you minus well dream it
sometimes i wonder
am i waiting for a bus
that jus isn't coming?
shouldn't the bus have come by?
its ok, ill jus sit and wait here alone
jus leave me here
ill do my best to wait
how many more days, weeks, months, years?
as long as u don't say never
jus give me another chance
do u ever pretend that you're ok?
sometimes i find myself pretending
even when no one is around
sometimes our best jus isn't enough
sometimes I'm afraid to look inside
because i know there's deep pain
emptiness, despair, loneliness, guilt
and i begin to over think and dwell
so i try not to look inside
but if that's the case
who is my facade fooling?
do i care too much?
or do i jus get too attached to people?
i tell myself, "i'll jus not think about it"
eventually things will get better, right?
it's not like i can do anything else
are things meant to be unresolved?
why does this pain seem to linger?
this silence haunts me
God please fix this, i know u hear me
please save us
mkay bye
_____
Sorry i clumped so many blogs together.. psh why should i be apologizing
no one reads this but u, actually no one reads it, well thats sad
nothing good happens after 2am.. jus go to sleep
Perhaps the reason why movies, dreams, anime, superhero stuff, and artistic worlds appeal to me so much is because i don't quite wanna deal with real life. Perhaps when we lose touch with the things and people that make us feel most alive, we slowly revert to entertainment to excite us. And so it makes me wonder.. how can i live a joyful and fulfilling life? and i guess the answer keeps going back to worshipping God, yet why do i often struggle with that?
sometimes i wish i didn't think so much. my mind is jus too flooded with internal thoughts.. i really wish i could jus turn my head off sometimes. Nyquil? yeah sounds like a plan.. goodnight
oh wait.. quick thought.. u ever have a dream so real.. i remember it so vividly. why am i so happy in my dreams? perhaps cuz things go the way u want usually? hmm.. true good point. snap.. talking to urself is never good.. or is it? perhaps it's good to counter question yourself. ok goodnight again freal
God. hey it's me. I'm sorry i haven't really been around much. I'm easily distracted. u see all the things i worry and think about. i pray for peace. i don't want to worry about the past present and future. i do want to trust in you. but i find myself worrying too much instead. God help me to trust you with my life. give me patience to wait. i didn't know missing someone could hurt so much. can u help me communicate telepathically? sometimes i can't endure the silence. God help me to not dwell, but to keep moving. God i trust you, even when things aren't how going my ideal way. u know whats best. u have perfect timing. and ur plans are good. so help me to trust u.
____
my room kinda looks like how i would see my soul
there's an unmade bed. a shelf with random things.
clothes all over the ground
and things stuffed into a closet
every time i walk over junk to get something
i tell myself i should really clean my room one day
yet it never gets done
yeah, I've made small efforts to organize and clean
but moving stuff under your bed or in my closet
really jus moves the mess around
My soul feels somewhat cluttered
perhaps i don't know how to clean
perhaps i lack the means
if i can't even clean my room
how am i to clean my soul?
perhaps i need help
maybe small steps might help
why does everything feel so unorganized within me
i feel like I've chained myself
and need some help
i hold a lot against me
i blame myself
but it's rightful blame
therefore it's guilt
why can't i receive grace
i think i feel mad at myself
I'm having trouble looking forward
I'm having trouble trusting God with things
why do i feel so helpless
if i jus patiently wait, will things change?
will things get better
i need someone to tell me it'll be alright
please jus tell me things are gonna be ok
tell me i don't need to hold things against myself anymore
and that I'm forgiven from my past mistakes
__
I slowly walk in the opposite direction
i turn to look back
you're not there
all i see is sand
and no road in front of me
the skies are grey
the air is thick and cold
my soul is parched
i continue to walk
days go by
i fall to the ground
exhausted
i lay there
unable to move
no one is coming
no one cares
i close my eyes
i see you
smiling
awaken by the storm
i realized it was jus a dream
im still here
in a sea of nowhere
you're not coming
you don't care
i lie to myself
i close my eyes again
ill hold on because i dont know how to let go
ill fight, ill wait, ill pray
even if u never come back
why do i still feel like i've lost everything?
i thought i really did know you
but maybe i dont
can u please stop the pain
instead of shutting me out
i know i screwed up
i couldnt control the beating inside me
will u hold it against me forever?
i dont want to say goodbye
cant things jus be good again?
was it really that easy to jus throw me away?
what exactly happened?
things changed so quickly
i dont think i really understand
but i refuse to give up
even the worst storms fade
and cities are rebuilt
is it not worth saving?
is it not valuable?
i don't like facing reality
there's a reason why people escape
even to their false worlds
because if u can't see the light,
you minus well dream it
sometimes i wonder
am i waiting for a bus
that jus isn't coming?
shouldn't the bus have come by?
its ok, ill jus sit and wait here alone
jus leave me here
ill do my best to wait
how many more days, weeks, months, years?
as long as u don't say never
jus give me another chance
do u ever pretend that you're ok?
sometimes i find myself pretending
even when no one is around
sometimes our best jus isn't enough
sometimes I'm afraid to look inside
because i know there's deep pain
emptiness, despair, loneliness, guilt
and i begin to over think and dwell
so i try not to look inside
but if that's the case
who is my facade fooling?
do i care too much?
or do i jus get too attached to people?
i tell myself, "i'll jus not think about it"
eventually things will get better, right?
it's not like i can do anything else
are things meant to be unresolved?
why does this pain seem to linger?
this silence haunts me
God please fix this, i know u hear me
please save us
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