Short Term 12

This is how movies should be. it gets so many things right. it hits so many emotions. you actually begin to care about the characters. i think the main character is also in "The Spectacular Now" too. Why are independent films so good?! Anyways, this girl named Grace is a foster care supervisor at this facility for at risk teenagers that deal with some pretty heavy problems. Even tho life can spiral out of control at times, having people who show that they genuinely care can bring about restoration, recovery and healing. There's this one scene where all the teenagers write, draw and make cards for this girl who's going through a hard time. it hits ya right in the heart

the movie is about how people cope when life gets hard. Even when Christians know we have God who is always there for us, it's still not hard to get overwhelmed and breakdown. Imagine how much harder it is for those who don't know the love of God and the love of community. 

I admire how these workers devote their lives to being there for teens who have gone through some trauma. They organically practice a ministry of presence. They listen and use talk therapy. But ultimately, the healing derives from love and friendship. They go out of their way to care about those who are hurting. too often we dismiss those around us, cuz we simply don't have the time or care to reach out. Sometimes it's difficult to be available to others when we're caught up with our own busyness. This movie reminded me that an act of love and presence can really change lives.

The movie is interesting because Grace is reminded of her past when she meets a girl who is going through similar problems. It was touching to see how she finds healing with her own pains and is able to be a bigger sister for those who aren't able to cope. There's something in all of us that tries to withdraw and push people away. We don't want to talk about it and just want to be alone. But healing isn't always an easy process. It forces us to go beyond our comfort zones and trust God and others with our pain. I think we all need at least someone to be there for us. We're all works in progress and we all need support. We all need someone who cares, who understands and is willing to listen. I aspire to be that kind of person to others. I want to protect those who are hurting. i really jus want to do that right. i want to be a good caregiver, a brother and a friend. i really do want to be better at loving others, but sometimes i jus don't know how. In order to be love to others, we must first receive love from God and others. then it overflows. God calls us to love, and that can start by being a good friend. take small steps in the right direction

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i saw a rat run underneath this juice stand in the mall yesterday. it was gross.

guh u ever have a song u hear, but u don't know the lyrics, song or title..

i like to hug my little cat but then sometimes he runs away. this is why puppies are better

oh i saw the lego movie. so awesome. except i was really tired and fell asleep in the middle. batman was funny. I'm inspired to make a lego video

at night when u go to bed, ur brain activity is supposed to go down so u can sleep. my brain activity goes up, and my mind gets wide awake. probably because the night is so peaceful, it's easier to think clearly. but it doesn't help when u should be sleeping

I'm trying to not to worry about it. but what am i gonna do for 40+ hrs a week for the rest of my life? can't i jus hangout with friends, watch movies and play games? guess not.. i was talking to a really smart guy. he said.. maybe ur eager to get ur ideal job right now, when maybe God is still preparing for u to be ready for it. sometimes we think we're ready for something when we really aren't. God pls lead me to the right job u want me to be at. 

u know u like naps too much when u take a nap when ur not even tired.

i really wish i could record my dreams. being in exciting awesome worlds and then forgetting jus bites..

if i slept right now, i would only get like 2 hours of sleep. cuz I'm supposed to wake up at 4ish to get to somewhere by 5am. cuz i signed up for the aloha run which is 8 miles. 1 mile is usually enough for me. i plan to walk most of it. it's supposed to rain. really not excited about it right meow. when i lack sleep, I'm jus not a very happy person lol.. doing laundry at 1 in the morning is never a good idea

u know how u need like 6-8 hours of sleep. what if u took like a 3 hour nap, woke up for a few hours.. then slept for another 3 hours. does that count as 6 hours? Too bad u can't jus sleep for like 24 hours and stack up energy for the week and then jus stay up a night using reserved sleep power. like roll over mins. i decided I'm jus gonna stay up. maybe 1 hour power nap.

do u think everything happens for a reason? are things meant to happen a certain way? its funny how if we could go back into the past. most of us would use it for a selfish reason. i watched a justice league movie called flashpoint, and the flash could've stopped hitler or saved jfk, but he decides to save his mom. but because he does, the whole world and timeline of events are different. jus makes me wonder.. what if i made better decisions and protected the things and people i cared about. how different would life be?  

I'm really craving eggs rice and bacon. with ketchup. maybe some toast and juice 

i also ended up committing to be a speech debate judge, driving a van and helping out a high school retreat, and helping a few people with delivering their presentations. volunteering to help can be good, but sometimes it might be wiser to learn when to say yes or no. Sometimes i ask past chris why he hasta say, "sure no problem" when future chris often ends up over stretching himself.

There are certain people and things that are worth waiting for. protect the things that are most important to u, because u may not always have them. I need to learn to trust God and wait patiently. I'll wait.. no matter how long it takes.