Boyhood

A Few Quotes from Boyhood

Mason: I just feel like there are so many things that I could be doing and probably want to be doing that I'm just not.

Nicole: You know how everyone's always saying seize the moment? I don't know, I'm kind of thinking it's the other way around, you know, like the moment seizes us.

Mason: Dad, there's no real magic in the world, right?

Dad: What do you mean?

Mason: You know, like elves and stuff. People just made that up.

Dad: Oh, I don't know. I mean, what makes you think that elves are any more magical than something like a whale? Yoy know what I mean? What if I told you a story about how underneath the ocean, there was this giant sea mammal that used sonar and sang songs and it was so big that its heart was the size of a car and you could crawl through the arteries? I mean, you'd think that was pretty magical, right?Mason: Yeah. But right now there's no elves right?

Dad: [Mason Jr. bowls a gutterball] Alright, don't worry about it.

Mason: I wish I could use the bumpers...

Dad: You don't want the bumpers, life doesn't give you bumpers. And if you hit a strike with bumpers that wouldn't mean anything to ya right?

Just watched a movie called Boyhood. it follows the main cast as they grow up for 12 years while they filmed it. It was interesting to see how this boy experienced life and growing up. It kinda reminds me of the 90's show the wonder years. You also see how the parents go through divorce, make bad decisions, and also try to get there life organized. The mom becomes a psychology teacher and has a quick lecture on attachment. I found that interesting since the mom and dad seem to play a big role in helping him shape who he wants to become. This movie ties in a lot of similar experiences we could all relate to.

He has a playful youth and seems to observe everything around him. His family ends up moving because of a mean step father. He goes through awkward teenage years and finds people that aren't the best influence. As he gets older it seems like he becomes more timid and basically a shy asian kid. He experiences a taste of church and christianity. He has good conversations with his dad. He experiences heartbreak, his first job, graduating high school, and moving away to college. He questions what the point of life is and searches for his identity and what he wants to do. It seems like the movie captures the journey of growing up.

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i constantly find myself trying to relive my childhood. I lived more in the moment and had more freedom to just hangout and play silly games with friends. adulthood seems scary. I dont think anyone really wants all the responsibility of being an adult. I really wish we could all jus be kids sometimes lol, it's way more fun. Lately i've noticed a lot of immature habits that i do that i need to kill and leave behind. Of course we need to remember to savor and keep a little bit of child-likeness in us, but for the most part i think it's time i start acting like an adult already. I rely on my parents too much for help. im thankful they helped me get this far.

As u grow up it seems there's just more things you hafta deal with and do even if u dont want to. adulthood seems difficult, and expensive. I not only want to become stronger, i need to be. i need to be more mature and responsible. It's scary not being sure what to do with our lives. There's so many different things we could do. even if it's a long rocky and expensive hill to climb to become a professional counselor, i think it's something i need to do. Experiencing pain and loss grows our heart towards helping others.

The most important things in our life are cultivating healthy relationships in our lives and directing them towards God. Love is wanting the best for others and wanting them to remain in God's love. So in order to invest in others, we need to do our best in taking care of ourselves.. right? I guess it's jus a matter of putting that in practice and applying myself.

for a long season i found myself dipping into moods of despair, hopelessness, loneliness, anger, and emptiness. My eyes were fixated at everything i did wrong and all my wrong choices. I allowed pain and sorrow to paralyze me. It made me want to withdraw from everyone. I lacked faith in God. I was frustrated that i was unable to fix and change things on my own. I relied on a friend for happiness instead of finding joy in God. I felt myself at the bottom of a pit unable to fight and try to get out of the darkness.

It took meeting new people, time to heal, changing my perspective and receiving God's love for me to begin to recover. It took willingness to get out of bed, to stay active, to put my faith and hope in God, You have to be willing to fight back and create healthy new habits in order to change. It takes trusting that He works all things for our good. Even all our sins and mess ups can still be used for his glory. In the middle of our sin, God demonstrates his unfailing love, kindness, mercy, grace, and forgiveness. He reaches down into that dark pit we drowned ourselves in, and says "My grace is sufficient." Instead of fixing our eyes on our problems, we need to fix our eyes on the power of God's love.  I still have pain and some sorrow, but at least now i have hope in God, for he is the one who restores, heals and transforms us. It's when we place our full trust in God, we experience peace.