I Feel Good!

Isn't it crazy how good music is? It always seems to better my mood. Gosh i feel so good right now! Aw yeah boyyy!! Turn dat muzic up! cheeewhooooo!!

There's music to pump me up, get me dancin and motivated, Den there's this kind of music that just puts me in a certain groove. those songs that u can't help but move. the beat just takes over! And then there's also a chill trap or just chill mix playlists that is usually my go to. Somethin that's relaxing and lets ya just enjoy the present. Oh and then there's also classic oldies music that always does the trick. 


I just youtubed "Trap Oldies" and man this playlist is killin' it! i love when there's remakes or house mixes of old songs with different and new catchy beats. No matter what mood you're in or want to be in, there's music to compliment that. i have no music talents but a huge appreciation for it. just somethin im grateful for. 

Being the introvert that I am, I starred up at the clouds for a few minutes today. I didn't learn anything deeply profound, no mind blowing realizations. I only observed how peaceful they were, drifting along. and it was nice. Nature always seems peaceful.. well unless there's an earthquake, volcano or tsunami.. I think it must be nice being a cloud. but then i thought, hmm.. although clouds have a great view to observe all of life, i bet they would much rather trade places with me, and instead of observing, get to experience the full life of what it means to be human. 

one thing that crossed my mind today was how I'm actually really happy in the present. To be honest, i think i'm probably happiest I've ever been. Not just today, but in the past month. and i really hope that happiness continues. I feel Good! 

"Happiness is only real when shared." 

The past is the past, and i'm grateful for the lessons it taught me, but at the same time, it's done with, and i have no need to dwell or dissect all the little details. The fu-chur is something I do visualize. it does make me ponder what it'll look like. But at the same time, that's for future Chris to deal with. So we'll leave that stuff for him. Right now i'm really enjoying the present. Perhaps that's why it's a gift! lol lame dad joke. Instead of thinkin of the past or present, the music reminds me how good life is in the present. And i guess i am hopeful for the future as well. 

One reason children are so happy, is because they understand living in the present. They know how to have fun and dance because they ain't worried about the next day. So today my lesson for myself is to just live each day to the fullest. Soak up the sun, dance like no ones watching, appreciate the people you care about, praise God because he is good! 

There's a lesson i learned from one of my previous clients. I said, how do you deal or cope with having a tough or bad day. He said, easy. even if you is having a bad day. whatchya do is just hit the reset button. Everything in the past don't count. It's a new start. Even in the middle of the day. It's okay to have a second chance to redo or change how you feel. Another thing music helps us do. no matter how down you feel, there are steps we can take in the right direction to feel better.

ah this music playlist is so freakin good. mm. yeah. today one of my top goals is to work out. I know i haven't been eating very well lately. So i should at least counter that by pushing myself to move my sluggish body. When i was younger i used to work out in my garage, and turn up the radio. man some music just hits a sweet spot where it feels you with so much energy! YEAAAHH!!!

I was also watching a show called, "Listen to Your Heart." I want to tell them, "No Listen to God!" but anyways, it's about couples that sing and perform together. They aren't just judged on their talents, but also judged on their romantic chemistry. It's pretty interesting because you can tell which couples click like electric dynamite and have such good harmony. Then you can tell the couples that are just faking it and really aren't great matches. There's one particular couple where everything seems to be going so easy for them. They're perfect for each other and they don't need to try to be anyone else but themselves. They're vulnerable, honest and communicate well. They look at each other with these eyes where they're the only people in the room.

I finished watching The Clone Wars. it's a Starwars animated series. Definitely fun to watch. I like the relationship the Jedi have with the clones. It also shows how Anakin slowly gets influenced to join the dark side. There was a quote that it mentioned, it goes like.. "Accept the things you cannot change, have the courage to change the things you can, and have the wisdom to know the difference."

I was thinkin about something a friend once told me. She said, "I believe if things are meant to be, then everything will turn out, and it'll be the way it's meant to be." Something like that..and i guess that gives me peace of mind. This would be considered a "Destiny Belief." I might possibly be starting to change that perspective a little bit. Another belief or perspective is that more than just some intuitive sign, relationships require both hard work and time  to grow to become stronger. Regarding the two perspectives, perhaps it's not an either/ or, but a both/ and. A lot of factors go into growing a healthy tree or plant. God is ultimately in charge, and so i place my full trust and faith in Him. And whether it's sunshine or rain, I have every reason to praise Him!

Something that really stuck out to me from a recent sermon from Francis Chan, was he said, "Yes, I absolutely love my wife, we have the best times together, I enjoy being with her. But I don't need her. Because I am fully satisfied in Christ. Because I know I have a loving God. And he is my everything." Such a high view of God, to be so cap-chur-ed  by God that one could easily and joyfully trade everything for the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus. The Lord gives and takes away. I think of Job, and how difficult a life he had. And yet He still praised God, even though everything he had in life was taken away from him. And then there's that passage in

Phil. 4:12-13
12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

And it's speculated, that Paul did not learn this lesson while life was going great, but when circumstances were tough. When he was being chased, imprison, hungry and with very little support. And yet, Paul knew the secret of contentment. Which is found in verse 4:13. God is our provider and the one who sustains and empowers us. God wants to bless us and fill us with his love, joy and Spirit! We simply need to come before Him to receive. Jesus is the living water.

John 4:13-14
13 Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, 14 but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

Father God,
I praise you. Whether in plenty or in want. I praise you because you are worthy, and of infinite worth. You are the Living Water. You are the one who sustains my soul. There is no one like you. I am grateful for all the wonderful things in my life, but help me to keep my eyes fixed on you first and foremost. Help me to treasure you above all. Take my heart, take and seal it. Remind me to not dwell too much on the past, or worry too much about the future. Help me to live in the present and to live each day to the fullest, to give you glory and to be filled with your joy and unfailing love. 
Stir in me a passion and hunger for you. Fill me with you're power and your Spirit! May you increase, and may i decrease. May i be joyfully obedient to you. May you be first in my life. Have you're way with me! Not just when life is going well, but more importantly when those hard days come. May my eyes always be on you! I pray you would light a fire in me, and may it be contagious and spark those around me. that you would burn in my heart. Oh and thank you for awesome music! I know everything good in my life is because of you. 

Thank you for the people in my life. Thank you for watching over the people I care about most. May you bless them and surround them with your love. Be with those who have lost loved ones. heal those who are sick. and if you could just take away this darn covid soon too that'd also be super great. But even more importantly, help us to place our trust in you. 
Draw me closer to you in intimacy. Fill me with your desires. Create a new heart in me oh Lord. Wash away any filth I may have collected. Father God I praise you for all the big things and little things that you do. I know I can't express enough gratitude, or even worship you the way you deserved to be glorified. Protect my words and actions to not hurt anyone. Help me to be better. Help me to treat others with only love, kindness and respect. May I abide and remain in your love. Heal any brokenness I harbor and comfort me in my pain, worries or fears. May you replace it with peace, faith, and hope. Thank you for Jesus. May I grow in His likeness and in His will. Thank you for forgiving me of all my sins of omission and commission. You're grace is sufficient. I place my trust in you. Give me patience, to wait, to be still in your presence. Father God speak to me, I am listening. I give you all the praise and all the glory! Thank you Father God! Amen!





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