2nd day of school

yesterday my teacher jus rambled on about her own life experiences and didnt teach us anything. Sometimes i wonder what im really gettn out of seminary. Sometimes the overwhelming requirements do make it feel like a "cemetery." all the time, money, work and energy for a degree that i dont really need, since tons of pastors dont need one. they teach about having peace, solitude, and having grace, but then they assign a butt load of reading and work! cant i jus worship Jesus and pass grad school! school is really frustrating me cuz i probably wont have much time/energy to do church stuff. jus too much responsibility.

Someone who owes me $200, isnt gonna pay me, and somethin i ordered online hasnt come for over 4 months, so i hafta forfeit about $300. Which sucks. I also lost another $400 from some things last month. I hate when u lose money for stupid reasons, that's not your fault. Well it probably sucks more when it's only your fault. anyways i guess the thing really making me angry is school. sorry im in a bad downer mood. i usually dont like to post these sorts of blogs.

If i knew how hard Greek and Hebrew were before goin to Talbot, i probably wouldn't have gone to seminary. Psychology would've been easier. 4-5yrs for a masters jus doesnt make sense. Today i sat through a Hebrew 1 class. And the teacher was probably the most strict teacher i've had. Ive had some scary teachers that i persevered through, but this guy jus seemed brutal. There's butt loads of work and quizzes everyday. So much reading and I could tell he moves too fast through material. Hebrew makes me want to do crazy things. I jokingly thought of all the ways i could jus die. I want to barf in a big ditch, add some homemade tears, throw in a shark, add 13 porcupines, fall into it, light in on fire and drown. That's how my class made me feel.

Asking if greek or hebrew is harder, is like asking if the alantic ocean is deeper than the pacific. They're both so confusing and hard. least greek is over. I felt so much stress after hebrew class. I may need to drop chaplaincy jus so i can try switch to an easier prof. I really just wanna pass.. 93% = a B+! what happened to 89%, gah! Right now school is causing me all sorts of stress. ive spent 6 semesters of greek, and have no need, use, or memory of it. why do i hafta spend time learnin languages i wont use! i jus wanna get done. hopefully i can workout a better schedule next week. I jus want to cry. my heart hurts so much. Hebrew is so painful. Dang tower of Babel! i'm so ready to jus go to heaven.