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i dont like when internet is slow
im so habituated to hit a light switch, even when it's already off or on.
like i turn the lights on before leaving the bathroom,
or i turn off the lights walkin into the living room
i use my hand as a napkin for everything
when someone brings up a noun.. i started saying the phrase..
"well you know what they say about _______"
even if it doesn't make sense
if somethin requires too much work i say "ho brah so sweaty"
i have no idea what this blog is about
i really want a cheeseburger and fries.. oh minus well have some mcdonalds ice cream too
i was on tumblr.. and it jus makes me hungry and miss hawaii
i miss surfing and not worrying about anything
i need to be on True Life: I'm Addicted to Minecraft
it's all i think about now days.. fight zombies, build houses, mine for gold, tame pets.. ahh!
u guys who know me well, know that i am a pokemon master..
and well, even if the game is for 10yr olds.. a new pokemon comes out on Sunday and im excited
video games will probably keep me single for awhile..

This week i noticed a heightened value for accountability. It's honestly rare to find someone who will really be accountable for your spiritual, mental, emotional, social, and physical life. i can barely do anything on my own. self disciplinary is hard. i wish i could jus pay someone to do my hw.. books papers test.. and then san diego for a youth ministry conference.

We need community and the church to be united. too many ppl struggle with loneliness and depression. And it's because people have lacked the compassion to reach out to others, plus were so individualistic, we try to tackle the whole world on our own. we need accountability to pray and encourage one another. We all have things to share, but sometimes we jus dont have anyone to share it with, so we fb status it, tweet or instagram. We're honestly jus lookin for people to care and to be involved in our busy lives. it's so easy to withdraw and keep all our thoughts to ourselves. i need to learn to express myself more, listen to others more, pray more, and focus on accountability. i also need to study more.. gah

oh yah.. so back to needed community.. in my counseling class so far.. 5-6 ppl have cried.. i got teary when it was my turn.. sometimes we asian ppl bottle up our emotions and feelings to much. i need to learn that it's okay to be vulnerable with people you trust. i actually cried today.. wow admitting that sounds so girly.. and then i blog about it? and then someone said they were about to hug me cuz they thought i was some girl, and then someone else called me a girl too. man.. i need to stop being so girly, lol.. now that i think about it.. i dont have many bros who blog.. i should go fight a bear, well.. i'd probably die

the last two times i cried over the years have been because i havnt been a good son. i wish i were there for my mom and more patient. i dont seem to have the patience to listen and call her sometimes.. I also need to talk to my dad more.. living in cali has actually put a lot of strain on my family relationships and friends..